The Preamble First, I can’t tell you the end. It’s elusive. It’s a story still unfolding as we speak. I have a glimpse of it, but I’m holding out hope for a plot twist. Second, because this is about my mom and dad, I don’t want the truth of it—and the deep love I have… Continue reading Real Life: A Perfectly Imperfect Love Story
He never forgot us. That was a random thought that occurred to me as I was wiping my tears following one of the many waves of grief that passed through me that day. It was was three days after my dad passed away. I was still in shock, not able to honestly comprehend my dad… Continue reading HE NEVER FORGOT US. My dad’s tragic ending with Lewy body Disease.
My dad, just went on hospice today. He has Lewy Body dementia. It’s a combo of Alzheimers AND Parkinsons, a double whammy. It accelerates faster that other dementias, and is one of the “worst” dementias, as its speed results in massive chaos physically and mentally over a short period of time. Leading, ultimately to his… Continue reading his sick brain – my dad’s Lewy Body dementia
My husband and I have been on a journey of sorts. This year, well, sucks. Covid, layoffs, political tension, grown children still living at home. We, like many others, are trying to simply navigate our way through all that is 2020 and stay sane. As such, we’ve been meditating a lot. We have discovered different… Continue reading Heavenly Sandpaper
One day, you’re going to wake up, and then, that same day, your heart is going to stop beating. This is the truth. We all… (end, transtion, die, use whatever phrase you’re comfortable with). One day your heart stops beating, and one day, everyone who loves you, loses a part of their heart as well.… Continue reading Enjoy yourself. It’s later than you think. ~Chinese Proverb
I’ve been so sad for so long. I’ve been depressed, and anxious and angry. I’ve cried, popped Xanax, lost sleep and emptied the tequila bottle one too many times. It’s been months of this daily baby violin playing (Spongebob people c’mon!), and I am tired. I am truly, exhausted. My husband, through tears the other… Continue reading Little Ember
Bodies in motion stay in motion. We move, we keep moving. It’s the simple law of inertia. Mentally, physically and spiritually, this momentum is a scientifically proven fact. Newton’s First Law of Motion states that a body at rest will remain at rest unless an outside force acts on it. Well, this body has stopped.… Continue reading just frozen
Many of my musings talk about the why I do the things I do. I push myself hard, in many ways, and understanding me, and my childhood, it’s easy to see why. I was a fat kid. Less than average, the black sheep. As a result I had terribly painful pre/teen years filled with internal… Continue reading Guess what? It is up to you.
I struggled throughout my childhood not being good enough. My brother always got the better grades, my friends were always skinnier and prettier, I was never the smartest, fastest or strongest. I was pretty – enough, smart – enough, nice – enough, but just an average girl who dreamt of being magnificent – always falling… Continue reading The Balance of pushing ourselves….
Ah yes. I did it again. Why? Because I was restless. Stuck in a painful place with my career where the stress was eating me alive. Depressed because my two kids are grown and off in college. And tequila, well that may have had something to do with it. I did an IronMan in 2016.… Continue reading IronMan Part 2
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